Well I have been on Mackinac Island for almost a month. It has been interesting to say the least. I have been "dating" Sean for almost 2 months and I have not been able to get ahold of him for the past 3 days. The last time I talked to him, he was packing because he had to be out of the house by Monday (tomorrow). That was on Thursday night. Today is Sunday and I have not heard anything from him. And it is not like Sean at all to not get ahold of me for days on end. I am talking about a guy who will call me multiple times a day while I am at work and text me all day and then we will talk several times at night. So I am starting to freak out just a little bit. I have talked to his aunt who he was living with and she says that she has not talked to him but she is sure that he is fine. I have talked to his brother and he said that he talked to him 2 days ago and he was fine but he has not talked to him since and he does not know where he is. I even texted his mom and told her that I had not heard from him and that I was worried and she has not gotten back to me. I am starting to freak out just a little. Really more than anything I am pissed off. Being pissed is my way of being scared. I don't like to be scared. Not at all.
Ok that rant is over.
Since I am on the Island I am living in what could possibly be an upscale Crack House. HATE CORBY HEIGHTS. I am in the same room as last year with the same wonderful roomie. The girls that we are living with are IDIOTS. Like DUMB DUMB DUMB. Oh well, I miss last summer, well the season. The business, the girls, the money, and well that is about it. And most of all we miss ALYSSA! One of the things that I did not miss and I wish that I did not have to deal with at all is seeing Tom. I see him damn near everyday. The other day I hit my breaking point when I saw him. At the same time that he was going by on his carriage, I was looking up out of the window and he was looking in and we made eye contact and the song Who Knew by Pink was on and I just lost it. On a poster that Amanda has it says "You can erase someone from your mind. Getting them out of your heart is another story." I honestly feel that way about Tom. I can go months without thinking about him but I know that he is always there in my heart and I feel like he always will be. I just wish that we could talk. Because of everything that we went through I miss my friend. The talks that we used to have. I miss him. And I don't think that he knows that. I don't get it...maybe I never will.
I sure am glad that I am going home for a few days here in a week so I can get off this Island. After a while it just takes your head, puts it in a blender and hits the puree button and laughs while it watches you lose your mind. Beautiful place this Island is but she is one nasty bitch.
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